Tell me it's going to be ok

Dear God,

I know you are inundated with prayers big and small every day, every second. I know you have big tasks at hand. I know it might be very stressful being you. I don't know if you've the time or are watching, but I really need you around.

When you weren't looking, one of my closest relatives was afflicted with a bad ailment. My world came crashing down and I am devastated.

I've always been able to see the good in everything that you do, and am thankful for everything that you've blessed me with in this life. But this time round dear God, I feel let down. I can't see anything good. For someone who has already seen so many sorrows, it doesn't seem fair that they have to go through this too.

Only gold goes through fire seven times.But there is a limit to human endurance dear God. We break too.

I know this is another test of how positive and strong we can be dear God. But atleast give us a sign that you are by our side and are watching us. That we are not alone. That this too shall pass. That we will come out of this unscathed.

I believe in miracles and am desperately seeking one from you now. I know it is all possible through you.

Please don't test us so much that we lose faith dear God.

You've put us through something that needs tremendous strength. Did you really think we are capable of so much strength and positivity? If you think we are, I am glad to know it.

I refuse to lose faith in you. I know you will place your healing hand upon us and show us miracles.

Grant us tremendous strength to sail through the latest of your tests. Let us feel that we can make it. Please show us that you are there and haven't closed your eyes to us. Please..

Faithfully yours,

Stillness

A answer to my prayers

You walked into my life, when there was darkness all around. No one saw the sorrow behind the composed and smiling face. You did. But you didn't walk away after expressing sympathy. You chose to stay. You walked in, when everyone had walked out. You came as an answer to my prayer.

You listened to me patiently. You made me pour it all out. You never gave up. You made me look at the positive side when all that oozed out of me was negativity. We discovered so much in common. You became my best friend. Someone who respected me and genuinely cared for me. God answered yet another prayer.

I saw myself in you. You were a reflection of me.Never had I imagined that you'd like me. You never expressed it, but I knew it. I tried to push you away. Because I feared that you'd leave me and go away. I didn't want to face it again. I didn't believe in love anymore. But you weren't amongst those who'd relent and walk away. You persisted. What a fool I was to have resisted, when God was answering another of my prayers.

My cup of love overflows for you. Never have I met another like you. They don't make anymore like you! Unconditional love was something I had read of. You showed me what it was like to experience it. You make me feel so special. You give meaning to my life. You make me look forward to the future with tremendous amount of hope. A hope of the last of my prayers to be answered. 

I still exist!

It's been so very long since I last wrote. It feels I've forgotten how to write...forgotten that I have a TV I can watch...forgotten that there is music I love to listen to...Forgotten that I exist online....Hey no! I am not suffering from amnesia! And I had no intentions of giving up the worldly pleasures so early on in my life either! 

There is a little bit of a turmoil in my personal life at the moment. I am not trying to escape from it and I don't mind going right through it, if that is the only way out. I know my path isn't wrong. Just need a little bit of a push, shove and a lift from Him.

I was never a workaholic but that is who I sound like these days! Who thinks of work and solving problems in his or her dreams! I involuntarily do! Oh No no no. Am not in love with work at all. I have forgotten to allow myself life beyond work. Life is very beautiful. Way too precious to be spent wallowing in misery and escaping through sleep! Someone hammer that down my head!!

I hope each of you is doing well. I have so very much to catch up on! I just hope I am more regular and in touch with myself in the days to come! Regards to each of you and sincere wishes for your good health, happiness and peace :-)