Serious Sleep Deprivation!

For someone who is used to sleeping 9-10 hours straight, at about 4-5 hours from the time I hit the bed, I'm just getting done with starters. I haven't gone to main course in this entire week! The last time I ate 3 meals in a day was the last to last week. Am I beginning to sound like a poor lil hungry kid, looking for donations? Oh Jeez! It does to me atleast! I do make enough (Just got myself a pair of jeans I don't need- Does that count as bragging? Sorry!), but I don't find the time to spend it! Am I working hard? Hardly. Infact I am forcing myself to work these days. If my organization were to come up with a  "The Most Disinterested Employee of the Month" award, I'd be the winner! If I say I loathe work, I'd be putting it mildly. Yes I am looking for something better, and as and when the world snaps out of recession and my stars begin to look up and the Gods above take pity and smile on me, I shall get another job.

If you must know, the environment isn't very conducive to happiness, when a manager and a Tech Lead who ace at screwing other's happiness are at the helm of affairs. Yawn. No bad experiences for me yet (yeah yet) but it disgusts me to see others getting treated like dirt slaves.

It's another of those days when I want to run away to the hills ( Surprising I only find the weekends to do that)
But I did have my share of great moments. Those hours when I ate. The time when I slept. The times I shopped with my sister, and the fabulous beyond description book I read- 2 states by Chetan Bhagat. Oh my I identified so much with it, I can give the writer a peck on the cheek in full public view. It's almost autobiographical and describes the great Indian caste divide, inter-community and arranged marriages and how love conquers all. Don't go by my description. It sucks. But do read if the first few pages appeal to you.

Coming back to blogger feels like reconnecting to sanity. No one talks, but everyone listens. A silent conversation. Wow!( What a line!) It is good to know how everyone is faring, and delicious to see people write so positively that you feel like discarding your negative thoughts with the next breath you take!

Just read my own post title and have an urge to elaborate. The past week has seen me sleep with my mouth open on my way home. I barely get to the door and am out like a light. I am sure I will sleep for a long period that day. Within 5 hours I am up with a head that hurts. I have tried everything to put myself back to sleep, but it's not difficult to guess it failed. Herbal tea, eating to capacity, tiring myself out. The works. And the one day that I was feeling sleepy beyond 5 hours (today= weekend), I have to wake up for an appointment with the doctor. Screw the world. All I need is sleep. And good food. Make that with cheese please. And spicier the better. Thank you!